I am no writer. A writer can convey emotions through words.
A writer would be able to say that she wants to die - in some ways - but that in others she knows life goes on, and that death solves nothing.
A writer would scribble down the fact that she hates that she is no longer in control; that she doesn't know what's going to happen in the future and that that's what hurts the most.
She would say she doesn't know how she feels.
She would describe a knot in her stomach and a lump in her throat and a weight on her heart that she doesn't understand.
A writer would jot down that she cries not for unrequited love, but because she's not sure what love is, if she's had it, if she's lost it, if she'll find it or even if it exists at all.
But I am no writer. I'm just a girl.