The New Year for me had a terrible start, and it doesn't really look to be getting any better.
New Years eve was horrible, and if you know me then you probably know what I'm talking about. Perhaps you're even questioning how it could get worse. True - that night was physically taxing, but there's nothing worse than mental and emotional hurt. There is too much weighing on my mind.
There is nothing to be gained here. I made a mistake months ago and I'm being punished for it today - everyday. I don't know how much longer I will last.
I don't want to be here anymore. I want to leave.